I'm probably going to become vegan now

I read a lot. I read books and I read blogs and I read articles and I read the transcripts of the videos I watch. I try to learn something new everyday. 

It's unfortunate that in my quest for knowledge and understanding most of the brilliant men that I have stumbled upon in books and websites turn out to be psychopaths and narcissists. And in the online world of communication, all too often they turn out to be controlled opposition. 

They give you some truth, make you feel like you've found your tribe, but then withhold vital information, and steer you in the wrong direction altogether. 

Examples of people I have previously endorsed that I cannot in good conscience support any longer.  

1) The Narcissist 

Comments: This guy has been an inspiration. Thank you kindly for the good quality book recommendations, and the helpful  insights about the healing power of the sun and the adverse health effects from LED lights, but I can not in good conscience recommend this guy anymore. Anyone who says that parasites are good and raw meat is healthy is not someone I could ever support. 

URL: Cultivate Elevate @ YOUTUBE / RUMBLE 

2) The Psychopath

Updated comments: 

Successful psychopaths succeed by gaining the trust of people who value them for their brilliant intellects but who fail to see that they are capable of committing the ultimate betrayal. 

Comments:  Sorry. It pains me to publish something negative about this man, but I'm done. Thank you for the book recommendations. I've learned so much from you, but seriously, you think all women are evil? WTF? I'm thinking this guy is older than he says, and probably has some connection to project paperclip. 

3) The Jesuit, Double Agent, a hybrid of the narcissist and the psychopath 

This is the guy that recruits ISRAELI art students. What does that mean? People of different nationalities, but usually attractive young women seduced by the allure of the modern renaissance man, are easily recruited to become spies for ISRAEL, without ever fully realizing what they are.

Comments: There are many clues, but his denial of flat earth is the dead give away.

I speculate that another thing these three men have in common is that they are likely representative of the O- bloodline. 

 

Playing Tennis

I've never been an avid tennis player, probably only played less than a dozen times in my entire life, the past two weeks included, but I have played a lot of badminton when I was younger, it was always my favorite sport. 

Anyway, I started playing tennis again. I guess it's like riding a bike, once you learn how to ride, you never forget. 

I filmed myself. This was taken last week. It was my second time playing tennis in the past week after not playing in almost ten years.

I'm putting this up here because I've decided to become a superior Olympic level athlete. Whether that means running ultra marathons or climbing mountains or riding my bicycle around the world, I want to document the process, so I'm starting here at the beginning.

It's raw footage. Unedited. If you like tennis, you might enjoy it. If not, well, you don't have to look at it. Either way, I'm putting it up here, because I like it and will enjoy watching it again.

I'll probably edit it down to a smaller size at some point, focusing on the highlights, and maybe create a YouTube channel, but for now I post the raw unedited footage here.

The New Reality

Have you noticed that there are a lot of new YouTube videos with realistic looking people that are actually artificially generated?

And I'm not talking about movie "extras" in the background. I'm talking about the main character of the video, the main attraction, the primary protagonist, the purported YouTube channel owner taking selfies in real time. 

Yeah, I've noticed it. I'll have to put some evidence later, there's actually a huge amount of it.

What I've noticed is that they use real videos of real people engaged in real physical activities, videos that people uploaded to social media over the years, not realizing that when you upload videos of yourself to social media platforms, the website can use your data in any way it chooses, which means it used a lot of videos for training AI. 

What they do is take original videos of people engaged in action shots and they take that data and can change it, by for instance superimposing a different face on the original content body, and they can also change the background environmental footage, and they can change the script, change the voice, but really it's just a fucking fabrication of reality. 

The evidence lies in the eyes and the hands. If something on a video looks "off" with the eyes and the hands, you may be looking at an artificially created caricature of intelligence.

In most cases people have no idea that their videos have been used in this way, but there also exists a small group of social media content creators, particularly one's with a large audience and a higher net worth, have voluntarily sold their data to the highest bidder. Again, there are examples, and I'll try to post them.

The second observation I've made today is that where I live, in Southern Arizona, I've noticed that over the last couple months, there's been a major reduction of air traffic, despite living under a main flight path, and zero chemtrails, but ever since the election, it's like a switch has been flipped on, and the air traffic is back, and the chemtrails are back too.

I'm wondering if they may be dumping bird flu on everyone. Again there is evidence in support of that too. Either that or we've entered an alternate reality matrix, like some kind of wormhole, where we have entered a different dimension in time and space, and at this point we may all be time travelers in an episode of the Twilight Zone.

Progress

 

So, I finally did it. Raised my VO2 Max from 39 to 42. 

If you are younger than 30, that number probably sounds unimpressive, but I'm a bit older than that, and so for my age and gender, that's in the excellent range.

My next goal will be 45. I seek to become superior. 

Not against others though, but against my own base and inferior tendencies. 

I'm also humbled by the fact that regardless of what some chart says is in the excellent or superior range, that's just a general guideline, and there may be people significantly higher than that in the same age group or older.

I've read in some forums of peak female athletes being in their late 50s or 60s, and having a VO2 Max of 50 plus, which is higher than some males in decent shape half that age.

I'm running again, but have also taken up tennis. It's fun. I have a tennis court where I live so it makes it really convenient. But it's like now I have to buy new shoes and new clothes and it's not really in my budget. Anyway, I've filmed some of it, and eventually I will post a few highlights.

This season I'm really making a big commitment to increasing my physical fitness. Yeah, I'm still drinking beer, and smoking a lot of pot, am officially now a pothead, but I'm focused on the essentials, becoming extremely fit and going on adventures. 

It's unfortunate that I have to slave away for a living, spending a significant portion of my time engaged in activities that are not conducive to my personal happiness, and as an independent contractor with no guarantee of work, every week is full of uncertainty, but I'm making time to spend in the outdoors doing fun things that are personally enriching. 

I've got a bunch of field trips planned. Not sure if I'll be putting it on YouTube or not, but there will be some visual evidence. 

Of course the internet is dead, censorship is at an all time high, and the internet may go offline soon, possible EMP attack on the horizon, or possible fake event to erase history and keep everyone in the dark, but I'll keep going for as long as possible and hoping for the best.

The Yage Letters

Just finished reading The Yage Letters, it's the fourth book I've read so far by William S. Burroughs, and it was a major disappointment. Not good at all. It sounded intriguing, the search for a drug that is said to stimulate sensitivity to telepathic communication; that's something that is totally up my alley. In fact, if you know of any books that deal with that subject matter, please do send them my way, via email or the comments, I'll look into it immediately.

Anyway, Burroughs lived many years south of the border in Mexico, mostly to escape prison time in the U.S. for long-time opiate addiction and dealing, and during his time there traveled extensively through Central and South America. This book, presented as a series of letters to friend Allen Ginsberg, chronicles his search for the hallucinogenic vine Yage, also known as Ayahuasca.

His experience with it was nothing special, and mostly negative. Though I have to say his documentation of the experience, not only of using, but the whole process of finding it, and the cultural folklore, encounters with shamans and such, acquired along the way was very brief and incomplete. Read more like informal letters to a friend, rather than an anthropological survey, which of course is I guess all that it was intended to be. But based on his other writings and ideas, which I believe are best captured in his interviews, where his extensive knowledge and intellect really shines, he could have done a lot better than this.

It's just that there wasn't really enough there in my opinion to even publish it as a book. The whole thing was less than eighty pages, and most of it, despite the title and description, centered not around the search for Yage, but the search for casual sex with young men, who in some cases were still what you would call boys, teenagers, barely legal. Okay, I don't care about Burroughs' homosexuality, doesn't bother me, but men who are over forty-years-old cruising for one night stands with 15 year old boys is in my opinion disgusting.

Its value is primarily autobiographical, but as far as providing information about Ayahuasca, and being a travelogue of 1950s Latin America, its value is minimal.

I don't know why, but I always seem to gravitate to reading dirty old men, people who, like Burroughs, Bukowski, Miller, in real life I would find so repulsive and degenerate that I'd have nothing to do with. I guess it's my shadow, such interests, that manifest purely in literary form, a fascination with inferior men with brilliant minds, tarnished by perverse, decadent habits and thoughts.

I'm not done with Burroughs just yet, but this one has turned out to be the least interesting and most disappointing book of his so far. Though I have to say, his books Junky, Queer, and The Yage Letters should all be read together, they were all written, though not published, around the same time, and deal with the same subject matter, that of addiction, gay cruising (despite the fact that he was married to a woman) and travels, and read like they could have been combined in one big autobiographical novel; with The Yage Letters being better as an appendix, rather than a stand-alone work; though I can understand why they did it that way. Junky was, after all, his first novel, and almost wasn't published. Its autobiographical value wouldn't be realized until many decades later.

I'm looking forward to reading more of his interviews, his novel Naked Lunch, and then moving on to other things for awhile. But I will be back.

Everybody is Watching

Watched a movie last night, its name is unimportant, but what caught my eye was that several people in the movie were using smartphones, taking pictures and video clips of strangers on a plane and uploading it to social media; which would later be misconstrued as proof for a crime, used against them, making them look bad, but who would later be found innocent.

It could admittedly go either way, amateur video footage has both helped and harmed, but the fact of the matter is that it's everywhere, and there's no escape.

Everywhere you look people are doing that, or have the capability of doing that, of being amateur journalists and spies; filming people without their knowledge or consent, and sharing it online. This, coupled with the fact that reality TV is becoming the most popular type of television content, is normalizing this intrusion of privacy, making people more comfortable with the idea that it is okay to be watched, to always be watched, and to have our private lives a matter of public record.

I had this insight that the prophecy of the Orwellian Police State, where everybody is under constant surveillance, is not necessarily something that must be imposed by governments or corporations, but is more likely realized by the hands of ordinary people equipped with smartphones and blogs, doing the dirty work for "them".

Reading Burroughs

So, as mentioned two earlier posts down, I've been taking advantage of the public library's interlibrary loan service, and am presently devoted to reading William S. Burroughs.

I've only read one book of his, that would be Queer, which was okay, but certainly not great. That was not through interlibrary loan, but something I picked up locally. Believe it or not I have not yet read Naked Lunch, which is probably his most famous work, but I do have some familiarity with it, after having seen the movie by David Cronenberg. Not bad. Been awhile since I've seen it though. Not since the late 90s, actually.

Anyway, I'm currently reading The Job: Interviews with William S. Burroughs, via interlibrary loan. It's not a great book, but it's definitely worth reading if you're interested in learning more about Burroughs.

My feelings about the man are mixed. I'm undecided. Not sure if he is a genius or a raving lunatic. Seriously. There are clearly some things I disagree with, some things that bother me about him. My main problem and primary area of disagreement, is with his apparent dislike, disregard, and blatant misogyny concerning not just the female sex, but with the feminine principle in general. As a female, I feel that basically anyone who states a belief that females are a curse, that the world would be better off without them, is going to get a huge red flag of skepticism and doubt hovering over all that they say, no matter how good and enlightened the rest of it is.

I almost think that I could have been born a man, but instead chose at the last minute to be a woman in order to prove firsthand through experience exactly why advocating the supremacy of the male principle is false. Only a man could believe that woman is a curse. Basically it suggests some major mommy issues, like ah, not getting enough attention or something, or else getting rejected by some other woman that he loved, but didn't return the love, and blaming every other woman that comes along for their lack of love and attention, lack of a strong mother/son bond.

Anyway, there's that, and there's also his rejection of the positive value of the family unit, that I would disagree with completely.

Other than that I would say he's brilliant, especially concerning his understanding of the mechanisms of control, the way governments function, the role of nations, police states and thought control, it's all very interesting. Don't agree with it completely, but it's definitely worth reading. Too bad there are so many brilliant men, that have little regard for women, beyond perhaps their sexual or procreative role, as mothers and lovers, and little else. Too bad. If they were females with the same mind, it would be totally different. It's the same mentality of the white racist. If they were born black, with the same mind, they would cease to be racist, in the sense that they would cease to view a person as inferior solely based on their physical appearance alone.

Don't get me wrong, there's still plenty to love. And I'm planning on reading everything he ever wrote. Pretty much everything except his opinion of females and the family unit is exceptionally interesting.