In my continued experimentation with marijuana I've been trying different strains, figuring out what works best for me, whether it's helpful or harmful, and to see whether this herb can be applied to my life in a constructive manner, and not just something to knock me out and forget my troubles.
In all honesty, I'm not a huge fan of potheads, because I despise laziness, and most potheads I've come across tend to be super lazy, sort of dopey, and lacking in ambition to better their lives. So I look at this as a short-term experiment, not a lifetime commitment, but a much needed change in scenery, a holiday in a way, an opportunity to personally weigh the pros and cons of cannabis consumption, and in the process to reexamine everything, and maybe walk away with a fresh perspective and a new and improved way of life.
Well, that being said, I'm naturally a philosophical person, who enjoys examining weird insightful ideas, but at the same time I tend to be a stressed out person, easily finding fault in others, and so I need something that helps me relax without dulling my intellect or destroying my health. I really enjoy drinking beer, and have actually experienced great creative inspiration from a good quality craft beer, but too much of that causes major health problems, so need to find something else to substitute for having that extra beer when having an extra beer would be a bad idea.
So when I have the craving for another beer, I allow myself two, then it's time to smoke some pot. But smoking is really bad for you, smoking anything really is bad for you. Possibly smoking marijuana is slightly less harmful than smoking cigarettes, but it's still really bad for your health to inhale smoke. So I decided to try out vaping, and so today I ordered a new vaping pipe, the kind for vaping whole flower, rather than the liquid cartridges, I guess it's the safer of the two methods, and so I should hopefully get that sometime next week, and will write some kind of review once I've had a chance to try it out.
I have had a lot of interesting thoughts come to mind while under the influence of marijuana but I also have found that my short-term memory is somewhat impaired at the same time, so I will sometimes have a flurry of ideas, but if I don't write them down they are easily forgotten. Also the funny thing is that some ideas seem absolutely brilliant when high, but when you sober up, they suddenly take a less significant dimension.
The key here I think is learning to live fully awake and aware, whether you are sober, drunk, or high, you need to take full control of your consciousness, look at the world, especially yourself, what you see, what you hear, what you think, what you feel, with complete honesty. It doesn't matter if you don't like something, you need to be honest with yourself about it. Because honesty is reality, and if you want to grow as a person, if you want to heal from whatever is inflicting you, you need to look at the problem objectively and honestly.
So if you're smoking pot, or drinking beer, how do those experiences differ from being sober? What are you looking for? Relaxation? Stimulation? Creative insight? Or an escape from thinking? It doesn't matter, as long as you're honest about it, you can determine if what you are doing is furthering your progress, if so, keep doing it, and if not, you need to try something else.