I'm taking a temporary break for awhile from my studies of imperialism and the globalist agenda. It's been kind of burning me out, there's only so much I can take reading about all the CI@'s and the Pent@gon's dirty little secrets, such as complicity in drug trafficking, training terrorists, the intentional sabotage and destruction of self-sufficient local communities and economies, and the assassination of anyone standing in the way of their globalist agenda. It's really depressing stuff. Especially when you see that most of what you've been taught in school and see on television has been a lie.
The whole thing is very tiring, all the negativity, the evil, the corruption, the injustice. It needs to be known, but you've got to counteract it with something positive, something life affirming, something that gives us hope, real hope that can be practically implemented. Not with violence though, that is the worst thing in the world, that just fuels the seeds of your own destruction. But rather it takes a profound shift in consciousness, a global reawakening, and I think the key to that lies in the actual soil of the earth, in the outdoors, in changing our entire relationship to the natural world, reestablishing our roles as sacred stewards of the earth, and putting the health and harmony of natural ecosystems and the quality of life for all people at the center of all economic decision making processes.
I've been spending quite a bit of time, probably too much time, scouring the web for free ebooks to add to my personal collection, many obscure hard to find titles of a more counter cultural persuasion, specifically those that aren't available at my public library. I've got several of Chomsky's books saved as pdf files on a flash drive that I'd like delve more deeply into sometime, though i'd much rather have the hard copies, as there much easier on the eyes. And have quite a few of The Club of Rome's publications, State of the World publications, several psychology books, new science, along the lines of Fritjof Capra, The Tao of Physics, The Dancing Wu Wei Masters, The Holographic Universe, Buddhist texts, Yoga, Qi-Gong, health and nutrition, several books on symbolism, anthropology, philosophy, esoteric studies, freemasonry, theosophy, several of Rudolf Steiner's foundational books, organic gardening, bio-dynamic gardening.
I really want to learn all about the soil in a spiritual sense, grow some vegetables, study plants as an art form, as an eyes wide open meditation in movement, as a spiritual study of life. I can't have a garden where I'm currently living. I won't be living here too much longer, the house is for sale, but the housing market here is so bad, it could still be awhile. But I think I may experiment with growing a few potted vegetable plants, maybe tomatoes and chili peppers, on a very small scale, something that is somewhat portable, or wouldn't be too much of a loss to leave behind.
I'm kind of annoyed with myself that I am already in my 30's and still living my life like I'm in my early twenties. I look very young though, still, could easily pass for twenty, but the reality is that I'm not twenty, it's been over a decade since I've seen my early twenties. I must have been caught in a time warp though, because I haven't aged much at all. However, appearances aside, there is this expectation that by the time you're in your 30's you tend to be more established in your life, well, I must have really fucked up somewhere along the line, taken a turn for the worse, because established I am not. Oh well, can't let it get me down. The past is over, today is where it counts the most, never too late to realign yourself to where you'd like to be. Attitude really is everything. If you change your perception, you change your reality. Sacred geometry applied to your life.
I've got a whole lot of books to read, plus I'm also supposed to be seeking full-time employment. Something I dread, because it's so hot, and I'm having problems with my ear, but it has to be done, because I have to move, hopefully someplace cooler before 2012, and I do not presently have the money. But I also must read, so I'm taking a break from the seriously depressing business of studying imperialism, global justice, and corruption, and back to the esoteric studies for awhile, and hopefully some organic gardening too.
I'm thinking it's about time I give the two core texts of theosophy a try. Is it a waste of time mumble jumble, or something deeply insightful? Maybe, Maybe not. Only time will tell. I'd rather read it for myself, and decide for myself, rather then going by someone else's possibly flawed assessment. These are huge books, with a combined total of over 2000 pages. I may not read it all at once, but we'll see how it goes. Both are by Helena Blavatsky, credited as being the founder of the Theosophical Society, written in the late 1800's.
The Secret Doctrine
Picture of the Day: Luca Pacioli teaching sacred geometry (1495)